Random Ramblings Are Random

So, I am slowly returning to the SCA (Society for Creative Anachronism) - so much has changed since I last played, and a very large part of me is worried that if I lay out the money to build a new garb wardrobe and all that fun stuff that I will be told that I can't actually go back, that the information I was given a few months ago was completely incorrect. Which is why I haven't taken the step of getting a paid membership yet. Plus, I was debating whether or not to use my old SCA persona or create a new one. My tastes have changed a great deal since I last played, and I suppose I want to remove myself from the painful memories of my former time in the SCA. Back when a lot of people I thought were friends turned out to be anything but. I had planned on getting back into rapier fighting but carpal tunnel pain has reared its ugly head in the worst way since I was originally diagnosed with carpal tunnel syndrome. I think it's due in a very large part to my current job, bu

I'm finally tackling one of the biggest triggers in my home in terms of depression - my bedroom. It's been an absolute disaster for way too long and I'm finally in the head space to deal with it after over a year of it slowly getting to the point where I couldn't access my closet or dresser, and I had no visible carpet. I have made some attempts at starting to clear the mess out but I got too overwhelmed and I would start to have a panic attack just trying to figure out where to start. Until yesterday when I felt mentally well enough to be able to make another attempt. This has been my most successful attempt in years - countless bags of garbage and old, hoarded clothing are now sitting in my living room to wait for tomorrow night so I can put them on the curb before I leave for work, and I have a carpet once again. It's far from finished but it is closer than it has been in ages, and I actually feel like I'll be able to get it completed tonight. And then af